I've always been someone who laughs a lot. Usually when things are funny, sometimes when I am uncomfortable. I laugh watching Gilmore Girls in my bed, I laugh when my friends are being silly, I laugh when I am overtired or sometimes a giggle or two slips out when it is inappropriate. I laugh aloud while reading books or at memories tucked away in my mind, and I laugh at a million more reasons in between. I also laugh at myself, a lot. And when I think that life is the worst and I am beyond miserable, I remember how many times I am still able to laugh during the day. No matter how bad things get there is always something to laugh about, to smile about, to just be happy about.
I am not trying to sound cliche, but laughter honestly is the best medicine. Obviously sometimes you're going to be sad or angry, but life is too short to linger on these negative emotions. I believe if you look hard enough there's always something positive, even on the darkest days. And if you really can't find anything to laugh about, sometimes I even laugh about what a joke my life is, at least it is something. I think it takes a lot of strength to dig deep and find joy in your life when all you want to do is throw in the towel. I believe everyone has the power to do it, but some of us are just too caught up in our own misery to realize it.
Every day for the past year I've written down something that made me happy. Some days may be "took a yoga class" or "spent the day at the beach with friends" others may be a silly story or that I ate a fucking delicious piece of cake for dessert. And even on the shittiest of days I still find something to write, even if it is just "took a nap" or "lit a candle while lying in bed" or "watched Netflix". Even on days when I cannot even remove myself from bed there is STILL something to find happiness in. I think it's so important to realize the moments in life while we are living them because someday we may not even remember them. It's important to live each second to the fullest because happiness doesn't come easily but it is worth it. The more you look for life's simple pleasures the happier you will be.
I'm not saying it's easy to find the light amongst complete darkness, but it is possible. Instead of sitting in the dark and accepting it, get your sad ass up and look for the light switch and don't give up until you've turned the light back on. Smile more, laugh more, and honestly just fucking live more. Remember that every storm runs out of rain. Don't settle for a mediocre life, a mediocre existence. Surround yourself with beautiful people and places and worry less about things. Go on adventures, eat yummy foods, meet new friends, smile big, and when all else fails, laugh.