That time has come where we have all gone our separate ways and said our goodbyes until we meet again on our first college break. We have all moved into our dorms and started making new friends, excited for what college has in store for all of us. But as I start making memories with new people, I can't help but remember the people who I made my first memories with, and who shaped me into the person I am today. There will be inside jokes no one else will understand, and stories that "you just had to be there" for, and crazy teachers that sound like they are surely made up. No one will ever understand the first 18 years of your life like your high school friends. So, to the people who saw me at my best, and at my worst, this one is for you.
Thank you for making those four years of hell somehow feel as though they were not that bad. We laughed together, cried together, and everything in between. Thank you for still being my friend during that horrific black eye shadow phase, and for finally telling me that it was not a good look. You were always there to high five when we both failed a test, or to mutter "there's your boyfriend" when that idiot in one of our classes passed by. We spent every day for four years together, and some of us even our whole school career. I'll never forget the lunch time chats, hallway passings, and late night drives. Thank you for embracing my craziness and supporting whatever crazy antics I was always up to. When I look back I realize we wasted so much time, and we took each other for granted. We thought it would always be the way it was, that things would never change. But here we are hundreds of miles apart, and all we have are the pictures to remember everything we have done together. Those times that we knew in the moment were good times, now I realize they were the best times, because we were young and invincible.
But it wasn't all good times, let's not get too crazy. Thank you for not making fun of my ugly crying face too much, and for always making me laugh when life was a total bitch. Thank you for holding my hair while I puked and not taking videos of my drunken ass. Also, thank you for not giving me (too) much shit in the morning, but laughing about it with me weeks later. Though we sometimes had a difference of opinion, it never took away from our friendships. The days we thought we would surely die at field hockey and lacrosse practice seemed to be rock bottom, but looking back it was never that bad. You were always there dying with me in sprints, and refusing to run anymore even though we never actually followed through on it. High school could get pretty rough, and it would have been much worse without a group of solid friends to make it less shitty. We complained, oh hell we complained so much, but nothing was ever as bad as we made it out to be. We're all still here, still breathing, and still friends.
I've said a lot of thank you's, but there should also be some I'm sorry's. I'm sorry for the days when I was a bad friend, and I'm sorry for not always listening to your advice. I'm sorry I wasn't always honest or for keeping secrets, but that was about me and not about you. I'm sorry you had to deal with me when I was PMSing or just being a total bitch. I apologize for anything hurtful I ever said, and I'm sure we all had our fair share of shit talking that we regret. But most of all I'm sorry I took our time together for granted, because it ended in the blink of an eye and I find myself wanting it back.
To my high school friends, I never thought I would miss you as much as I do. We had a hell of a run though, had some laughs, and raised some hell. We left our mark, that's for sure. But if there's one thing I want to say to you guys, here it is. Good luck with whatever you do in life, chase your dreams and follow your heart, and I believe in you 100%. If you think about it, none of us would be who or where we are today without each other. We brought out each others strengths and weaknesses and encouraged each other in these new endeavors. No matter where we go, or how many years go by, you will always be remembered fondly as my high school friends. The stories will be held close, and told to new friends. The pictures will be on walls or in throwback instagram posts. And though we live different lives now, when we reunite it will be like nothing has changed at all, because we will always be part of each others lives. Thank you for it all, because no one will ever understand you quite like your high school friends do.
During it I had no clue how the hell we were going to make it, but now I know that we made it with a little help from each other. So while you're going to parties and making new friends, remember where you came from and who it all began with. It was real, it was fun, and it was really, really fun. To my high school friends, kill it at whatever you do, and don't forget about me bitches.
Your High School (and forever) Friend